So Exhausted.........On the Vurge of a Meltdown

Every once in a while we all feel overwhelmed. We all find ourselves up against a tremendous amount of pressure to get things done and get to places that we need to be. Tuesday and Wednesday were those days for me. I was so tired, overwhelmed and hating every damn person that crossed my path and pissed me off with their stupidity. 

Now I believe in allowing myself to feel my feelings whether they are good or bad. I believe in feeling the bad especially. The bad feelings tend to teach you things. I am one person doing the job of two as a single mom. In doing this I really don't have help. I don't have family to fall on for help. It's my path and I accept it. I don't complain it really is what it is. However, I won't sit and blow smoke up your butt and tell you that it is easy. It is no where near easy. It is extremely hard. 

Last week I had a new task put upon my plate. I have been requested to do a work study sort of program because I signed up for a program for some assistance for us. This program would be a great help to me if I were allowed to do my job as oppose to doing the program in the cookie cutter way they do things. I have asked to be allowed to do as they asked but in a way that benefits me for my business. I would essentially be killing two birds with one stone. They refuse to bend. 

I found myself on Monday night, staying up until 3:00am doing the work they asked for. The next night I was up till 1:00am. By Wednesday I was exhausted, overwhelmed and pissed off. I had homeschooling, work, homework, blog post, sewing/crocheting and they wanted me to take my work to them which meant I had to take Harmonie to daycare. Yes, in the mist of all of this for this program my child is now in daycare. She likes daycare. She is getting an opportunity to play with other kids and getting extra practice on her school work. This all sounds good right? Well not so much, when you consider that I have to drive her to daycare and pick her up. That is gas money and time taken away from doing the things I need to do, like work. 

I'm sure at this point you are wondering what is my complaint. Nothing bugs me more than to deal with stupid people. I hate wasting time. I hate being asked to do things that make no sense to me, especially when those things take me away from my responsibilities and cost me more time and money than doing things my way would. So needless to say I was extremely angry and hard to be around by Wednesday. The guy that I have to work with in this program gave me an attitude and it took every ounce of my energy to not snap his neck with my words. 

I made it through the day, and at the end of it, I was so grateful to be home. I managed to get my homework done and turned in on time. I was so worried that I would not be able to get it done and turned in on time. We are not always going to have good days. We are not always going to get along with others. We will be asked to do things that won't make any sense whatsoever because there really are stupid people out there in the world, that don't have the commonsense to make life easy because in the end everyone will get what they want. Regardless of these crappy days, we will make it through. It is after all just another day. God willing another day will come and we will start fresh again. This to shall pass and thank The Lord that those two days passed quickly. 

What days were hard for you to get through? What has someone made you do that you felt was stupid because of the way they wanted you to do it?